I’m drained.

This isn’t a milestone I ever thought I would hit. This isn’t one worth celebrating either and I’m really sad that I’m writing this out but I feel like I can’t talk about it to anyone else. This cycle was our 12th cycle trying. 12 long months that somehow went by way too fast.

At first I was hopeful - even after the losses I’ve had. Then I was impatient and starting to stress BAD by how long it was taking which we all know what that can do for your cycle.

EVERY cycle I convinced myself that this was it! It was finally time this was OUR month, it just wasn’t.

And I know everybody says “just stop trying and THEN you’ll get pregnant!” or my personal favorite “You’re too young! Live your life first then have kids!” (Plot twist; I’ll be 24 in October I’m not “too young”)

I’m not sure what I was expecting out of this but I had to vent anyways. Anyways to whoever reads this have a wonderful day! 🤍