Feeling defeated

My daughter who’s just shy of 9 months was around a family member who was sick and didn’t tell anyone. We were in town two weeks ago for a family wedding. They did sound sick or look it to us. He’s a 16 year old kid and his mom and him were saying he just had allergies. Come to find out he had a fever and wasn’t taking anything for it. That’s clearly not allergies or a cold. Well anyone, who was young or elderly, and was around him has now gotten sick with something. He was staying with DH’s grandparents and they’re both very ill. His grandmother needed to get antibiotics and an inhaler. There was another baby around him that got sick but has gotten better. My husband was sick and got antibiotics for it.

My daughter came down with it a day after he and his mom flew out. She’s been sick ever since. When we called her pedi the receptionist said that it sounded like a head cold and unless she has a fever to not worry. It has been the two weeks from HELL. Every night she’s screaming because she can’t breathe but we’re doing everything we can to clear her nose out. She screams and kicks and punches. Until last night I was the one doing all of it at night. I finally told my husband (while bawling) that I was exhausted and couldn’t do it anymore. I now have a dry cough and I’m praying it doesn’t turn into anything else.

I’m so mad at DH’s cousin. My daughter had a head cold in May and the worst of it was one maybe two days and she was mostly tired. Then another two day of just a runny nose. This has been two weeks and the pedi’s receptionist said that it’s totally normal for them to last 2-3 weeks. I feel so defeated. I can’t comfort her when she kicks and punches me from flailing her arms. I find myself getting so frustrated. Then feeling like a terrible Mommy. Like I don’t want to get frustrated and accidentally hurt her from trying to hold her down from kicking and punching. Or be too rough with her. Like tonight I put her in her crib and had to just walk out.

Any words of wisdom?

To add: I just retold the story so people who don’t know it can see what led up to this point. I understand sickness happens. That being so I can be upset that someone was a moron and basically went out of their when this could have been avoided.