I’ve used medication counseling exposure therapy and I’m the same/ worse

My mind travels and I think of outrageous scenarios where my son with get an illness

Eg I won’t eat honey fearing my baby (who doesn’t even eat solids yet) will consume and get botulism

I won’t go visit friends with kids thinking there kids will make my four month old sick

I won’t kiss my baby or let anyone else kiss him

I won’t go out in public no food shopping ect

I can’t function or live atm and I feel my family just doesn’t know how to help me

I’m scared my son will grow up with a crazy mum and this will impact him negatively or hold him back

This all happened and snowballed when I fell pregnant I lost all control of my feelings