depression

i think i fell into a depression from me and my girlfriend of almost two years breaking up. she thought she had feelings for someone else and she told me she was falling out of love with me. we broke up so she could figure out her feelings. i couldn’t eat an actual meal without feeling like i was going to puke it up, i couldn’t sleep until 4:00 am every single night, i didn’t want to do anything. but then i got better. i started to eat more again and i was just feeling better. thenn she texts me. tells me she figured out her feelings and that she wants me back and she told me she wants me to think about if i actually want to get back with her again. so i thought about it and decided that i did want to. so we got back together and i was really fucking happy. then two fuckinggg days later while we were texting i realized she wasn’t acting like she wanted to be with me and i noticed she was treating me like a friend. i asked her if she actually wanted to be with me again. she replied with “no ones 100% sure about what they want” and “i just dont know what i want right now.” and she left, again and told me to wait until august so she can think about things. i got hurt again because i was so sure things would go right this time. and now things are even worse than our last breakup and i can’t do anything.