Currently, I'm sitting here feeling really sad. I'm not sure if it's my pregnancy hormones or just the state of the world! My life is good! I have wonderful children and husband! As I type, my husband is is watching the NBA basketball finals and cooking at the same time. He's making bone in rib eye steaks, turkey chops, chicken, roasted potatoes, baked sweet potatoes, broccoli, brussel sprouts and leeks. Earlier today, he worked on the baby's changing table/dresser! I should be happy but I feel sad!

My sister texted me today and advised me her and my brother are coming to my Dad's memorial. I'm not sad about the memorial as I won't be present due to this new delta variant. My Dad passed away over a year ago. I think I would be more sad if I attended! What really gets me is that I miss spending time with my family! I wish my siblings could spend the night but that's not a risk I'm willing to take!!

Also, my baby is due during the Chistmas holiday. My mother has been present for all of her grandchildren's birth but won't be able to for this one. My Mother is a senoir and she lives on a different coast than I. I wouldn't dare have my Mother fly here to meet the baby. For her safety as well as for my family's.

I'm just really tired of this covid 💩! I don't know if it's my pregnancy hormones or pandemic exhaustion! How are you all feeling?