Being nervous

Brooke

Hi everyone, I wanted to know if it is just me or if what I am feeling is normal. I currently have a 3 year old son and a 11 year old bonus son. My fiancé and I are currently trying for another baby and I know it is what I want but I keep second guessing if I can handle it or how will we figure it out. I’m excited and over the moon to have another but I have days where I feel like I’m already failing with my 3 year old as a parent and makes me question what if I can’t be this awesome mom for both if and when we have a baby. My 3 year old talks but he has some speech problems where you can’t understand everything he is saying, he was in speech over video chat because of covid but wouldn’t pay attention or sit so we agreed to wait until we could get a in person arrangement to help him more with his speech. He also is pee potty trained but not even close with the poop potty training part he poops in undies, pull ups, diapers, the floor I feel like I’ve tried everything bribing, routines, books etc. I just feel like I could always do better with him and makes me feel like a crappy mother I’m my worst enemy with it. So I worry that if I have another baby what if my 3 year old isn’t potty trained yet will I ever get it before school comes along when he is 4 and will his speech ever get better or will I be too distracted with a newborn he doesn’t progress with speech. I just am scared to fail or have that feeling of me or my family thinking “you can’t even raise the one you got so why are you gunna have another one” I see other moms juggle multiple kids, jobs, crafting, having a social life etc. and some days I wish I was them they always seem like they have it all together while I feel like it’s all falling apart. I’m sorry for the long post just I complain or rant to my fiancé a lot so giving him a break and posting on here to relieve some stress and thoughts.