Feeling lost

(TW:miscarriage)

I have a 4yo & 1yo. I just found out today I am having a miscarriage. I had no idea I was even pregnant as I am on the pill. The birth control I’m on, I didn’t get a period. But yesterday I woke up at 4am with intense cramps & started bleeding very heavily. I called my dr & they sent me for emergency blood work which confirmed it. My husband is away for work & won’t be back for 5 days & I feel so alone. This is not my first miscarriage, & obviously we weren’t trying as i was on the pill, but I just have all these emotions & I can’t even process them because I am the only one home with my two kids & they need me.

Sorry just needed to vent & I have no one else to turn too.

Edit: Thanks everyone. The guilt is piling up big time. We went to a wedding this weekend, it was the first time I had drank in probably over 4 years not wasted, but enough to be tipsy & then not even 2 days later this happens? The “coincidence” of it all is adding to the guilt.