So I had my twins via csection on august 6th and per my boyfriend and my plan, I had my twins first feeding be off my breast to try and get a little bit of colostrum right after birth then they would go to formula. Well the first one I fed ate for 30 minutes and latched perfectly fine while my other twin wouldn’t latch and didn’t get to eat much off of me (maybe like 5 minutes worth). Okay fast forward to tonight. I noticed that my breast were starting to hurt and I realized that I was filling up. Well when I told him that, his suggestion to me was “well why not just breastfeed then”. I had to walk away because I didn’t want to start an argument and he knows that I wouldn’t be able to keep up with breastfeeding 2 babies. I was only able to breastfeed my daughter for the first 3 weeks before I became so depressed because she was getting enough at each feeding and we decided to start her on formula and she started putting on her weight and so forth. Don’t get me wrong, I would love to have the bond of breastfeeding but I also feel that I have to do what is best for my own health so I don’t go into a depressed state again. I just wish he would understand the pain (physically and mentally) I go through when trying to stop milk production.