Feeling abandoned

My significant other is still planning to go to a bachelor party out of the country this week, despite me being on bedrest in the hospital, due to preterm labor concerns. He booked this trip while I was at home on bedrest before I went to the hospital. I’m 29.5 weeks along, which is much better than I was when I was first admitted (24 weeks and days), but still early enough that our son would be in the NICU for a significant period of time. I’ve been in the hospital for 3.5 weeks. This is my second admission. For my first admission I was in the hospital for 3 days, only to be readmitted 3 days after being discharged. In total, I’ve been in the hospital for 4 weeks. I’m essentially bedridden, and am only allowed to get up to go to the bathroom. I never leave this room except 1x a week when I’m taken to get an ultrasound by wheel chair. Im not allowed to sit up straight. I have to either lie down flat, or lay back to avoid putting pressure on my cervix. My condition is at this moment stable, but there have been recent days when it was not such that the doctors were considering significant medical intervention. There’s no telling when I’m going into labor. I don’t get to sleep because I’m constantly woken up for medication, checking my vitals, random lab work throughout the day and night. So many of my veins have been blown because the various techs and nurses haven’t been careful, so I have bruises and pain all over my arms. I’ve also now been diagnosed with gestational diabetes, so now I’m getting my fingers pricked for blood sugar tests 4x a day. My fingers are so sore. My IVs keep leaking, so they have to continuously insert new ones, oftentimes requiring multiple needle sticks before they find one that takes (many times because they’ve blown so many veins already, that they have to keep searching for new ones).

Despite all of this, my partner believes his crystal ball (sarcasm) says that Im not going into labor while he’s gone. Even if I did, he somehow believes he’ll be able to get back in time for the birth. The issue is more than just him being here for the birth. It’s also about me feeling consistent support because I’M SCARED! I hope the baby doesn’t come early, and would never want him to in order to prove a point. I just want my partner to be here for me and let me know I can count on him to sacrifice a bachelor party while I’m in the hospital.

My partner says that I wouldn’t want him to go regardless of my condition, which pisses me off to no end. It’s not the same if I only would miss him vs. me needing him here because I need the emotional support. He’s not hearing me. I don’t feel like I matter. Quite frankly, I feel abandoned and alone.

Thank whoever reads this for listening to me vent.