I am stressed tf out

My boyfriend says my break time is when the kids are asleep. Yet he sleeps during the day leaves when he wants and chills with his friends, he doesn’t see it that way though, he says he doesn’t always hang out with his friends. But he goes out to eat with them, goes fishing, to the beach, to the club, to the bar. Even went to a concert! Invited me to go out than said never mind it’s just a boys night! N the only thing we done in 3 years is go to the movies, or the drive in, go out to dinner maybe twice and for the first time he went to the beach and kids water park with me.

I love my kids and spending time with them, but I’m so stressed out and annoyed by everyone. His family himself and when my kids don’t listen it’s all my fault cause I am a “bad mom”

I get complained to for leaving the house and for not leaving the house! If I don’t leave I’m lazy. If I do leave I’m concidered cheater, when he leaves I always ask where he’s going and when he will be back n he gets annoyed but he leaves n doesn’t come back till 5-6 am! We litteraly don’t even sleep in the same bed anymore. Haven’t had sex in over a month. And h constantly yells at me! I would love to see this work concidering we have kids. But I’m 21 he’s 29 and

I want to do something with my life and not be asked when you gonna go to school. When you gonna do this? I am going to go to school for massage therapy. But I still wannna do something other than work for the rest of my life. He expects the house clean, breakfast at 6 am that he won’t eat, and everything els he litteraly wants my kids up at 6 am and I at 6 am wile he sleeps all day. But doesn’t understand that that is wrong. He thinks he has done everything and that I do nothing, yet I have been the one paying the bills and now since I’m broke I’m late on the water bill. But am told I do nothing! My bank account bounced 500 dollars I paid 312 for electricity, the car insurance, the cable bill! Don’t judge me I just gotta vent and figure my life out cause I’m tired

I love my kids and will do anything and I’ve done a lot for this man but get nothing in return but being yelled at how I don’t do anything, and how I’m lazy 😕