He dumped me after 10 months, he didn’t “love me like that” **update**repost

We had been together 10 months. Saturday morning at 3:30 am I woke up to this text:

“Tbh I’m stupid and i know you are perfect and I don’t deserve you Erin and I know this is out of know where and u are asleep but I have too many mental issues that I can’t deel with them but I need a lot of space And i cannot deal with these feelings with you I do not believe this is healthy for me or you

But I am. Dealing with serious shit rn that I cannot drag you in and I care so much about you and I this is hurting and I am willing to talk but I have let this built up to long and I cannot in good faith bring u into this pain”

He wouldn’t answer his phone or really any texts.

He had went to a kid rock concert that night, and Friday we had went on a amazing date.

I ended up driving to his house with my mom and sister to confront him.

He said he was stuck in a rut with his life and felt with his job he wasn’t getting anywhere, and he was getting comfortable. I told him I could help and loved him.

That’s when the kicker came.

He said I care about you so much, but I don’t think love you like that. I dont think I know what love that that is.

He was the one who said I love you first, who made me feel like he loved me and I matter.

He said he knows he’s a terrible person and told me a deserve better.

It truly came out of no where and I’m so confused and hurt.

*UPDATE

I’ve calmed down and am still shocked. My mom has compared me to her mourning her mother’s death and thats what it truly feels like.

He had explained he had grown comfortable with his life and hated it. He worked at his grandfathers horse farm and wanted to go into business, however, he wasn’t really looking.

When I told him that didn’t bother me and my mom, who works for dell, wanted to help him work from home with them, that’s when he gave the kicker.

My mom says she thinks it got too serious for him, but it got serious because he pushed it to be, he said I love you first, talked about our future.

When I asked him at the break up if he thought about his future if I was there, he said I can’t think of my future because I don’t see anything.

UPDATE:

He had talked many times about our future.

And today out of curiosity I logged onto my tinder and saw he was on there, with a brand new bio and pics from when we dated.

And he’s talking to me like nothing happened, likes it was all a joke. Like I was a joke.

He was in my brothers wedding for crying out loud!! He told me he wanted to marry me, that I was his, that he loved me, and now I’m realizing I was nothing. And my family is trying so hard to help but nothing is working I just think of him.