Gender disappointed

I was just told I’m having my 4th boy. I’m just gutted. I love my children. I also feel extreme grief at the loss of never meeting my daughter. Grief at at the loss of hope. I feel happy to meet another son and so, so sad to not meet the daughter I planned to name, Matilda. It feels like I’ve lost her. My husband yesterday saw how absolutely destroyed, brought me roses and said if we can save enough, we can do IVF. So I’m going to hold onto that hope.