I was just told I’m having my 4th boy. I’m just gutted. I love my children. I also feel extreme grief at the loss of never meeting my daughter. Grief at at the loss of hope. I feel happy to meet another son and so, so sad to not meet the daughter I planned to name, Matilda. It feels like I’ve lost her. My husband yesterday saw how absolutely destroyed, brought me roses and said if we can save enough, we can do <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a>. So I’m going to hold onto that hope.