So recently I met this great guy(10months after my ex). We have vibe so well.

So before I met him I had casual sex with jeff, who was a lot older but I didn’t like him. So we stopped( Jeff is his pretend name) before Him, forgot to use a Dom in the moment. I know stupid but never saw that guy again. Then I had cold.

So moving forward to this great guy. Let’s call him Colin. Colin is amazing, he handled a lot of things very well when I revealed pretty important things about myself. So I was freaking out really badly lately and assumed I had HIV cause I was displaying similar symptoms. So I ordered a test kit. I felt guilty for not saying. So on Saturday 1 week ago, I rang him up and our convo was going well. I felt comfortable and I wanted to be 100% honest and I have been up to this moment.

He unfortunately didn’t take this very well. He became very annoyed, assumed that I said he gave me an std when I explained why I got these std results ordered. He went off on a rant at me about my sexual health and I deserve and I take full responsibility. He was like what would you do if it was positive, I was like I’d apologise and do much more to earn his forgiveness. He said that still wouldn’t do. So he said he needed space and would ring the next day. Which he didn’t. I said the results would appear on Tuesday or Wednesday to explain if they were or not.

So I rang my sister up distraught and she told me I shouldn’t have said anything because the results haven’t shown and she said he had a right to be like that and my therapist agrees on his reaction. My sister also mentioned that I am negative and stuff, so I shouldn’t be worried.

So next day he never messaged me, nor called. I gave him space and on Tuesday, he has messaged me and is being very Curt with me. So on Wednesday early morning I got my results, they are negative and I am gonna be more cautionary and not allow the moment to take away the use of a Dom. I told him and he was like Is that what results say so I said yes and screenshotted the message and He left me on open, I messaged apologising for everything, he left me on read and hasn’t went out of his way to talk to me to nip it in the bud. Then I had to message him for his results. He said he was negative. I goes we worried for nothing. He was like not the point.

So then I message again saying. Hey Colin, I think we need to talk and see were we go from here or should we just end things now. He goes I’ll ring later. He never did.

So then I never heard from him then. I rang him yesterday and he was like I’ll call you later I am in work.

He messaged me was like you rang me in work lol.

Then goes enjoy your concert with your sister and we can chat Sunday. (We seen Kodaline) I haven’t heard from him since Friday.

I wanted to ring so badly and tell him everything, like I’m wanting to sort this out and have it not be a problem. I feel he is punishing me and is gonna use against me in the future. He won’t let me talk to him and never follows through with what he’s saying. I also feel he’s icing me out and I realise he does it because he’s upset and annoyed with me but I wanna nip it in the bud and sort it.

I feel upset and I don’t know what to do.

Please do not send out negative vibes.