Am I alone here?

I lost my baby back in May. I've faced a lot in my life already and I thought my faith was strong. But I guess this loss was just the last straw. I guess I couldn't handle anymore heartache. My faith couldn't handle it anymore.

This loss has completely shredded my faith apart. I used to be a strong faithful Christian woman. And now I find myself becoming more of an agnostic Christian. I have the same basic beliefs but I'm uncertain about a lot.

Is this or has this ever happened to anyone else? Or am I alone in this?