Anyone else not preparing for labor online ? Good or bad idea?

With my first, I had a c section very early in my 3rd trimester and I never experienced labor. This time around, I’m lucky to have made it to 40w and will be trying for a vbac. I didn’t get approval for a vbac until about 38 weeks. I was supposed to get a c section at 39 weeks so I figured I won’t experience labor again. But since the plan changed, I wanted to learn about the process and I watched birth videos and i saw sooooo much pain, I got scared honestly. I decided not to watch anymore and just feel the pain as it comes. I haven’t learnt anything about breathing or other tips/post partum stuff. Anyone else staying away from googling/watching labor and delivery stuff and just wing it ? 😆