Need advice

Cierra

Me and my bf just had our some n 2 months ago while I was pregnant we separated until he was born but we have been together for 3 years prior ..well long story short considering I was pregnant for 9 months and then these two postpartum we haven’t had sex that almost a full year 11 months and at this point I am so sexually frustrated , I told him but he keeps saying that he has to hype him self up after seeing me give birth. Which worries me bc before he was affectionate and we had sex like everyday . Before I got pregnant I had a good body but I am still trying to lose my Bsby weight and I just feel like I am gross to him know but I don’t know how to tell him how I feel and then on top of that I found condoms in his pocket so many he is finding pleasure in someone els