Feeling sorry for myself…

I had my son in May at 41 weeks via VBAC. He was 9lbs and I ended up with a 4th degree tear (ripped from the vagina into the rectum). Basically, the worst type of tear one can have. Anyway, recovering from that was emotional as one might imagine. I’ve had to go to pelvic floor PT to restrengthen all my muscles. Anyway, I started work 3 weeks ago and was adjusting to that then my grandmother died last week. My baby was admitted to the hospital this week with RSV because he was wheezing with low oxygen. Luckily, he responded well to treatment and only had to stay overnight. I’m so tired. I told my husband I needed to take a nap. I timed it with when my 2 year old went down for her nap so he only had to take care of the baby. Well she woke after an hour, was crying, and only wanted me. I brought her into bed with me hoping she would fall back asleep. Then my husband laid down with the baby and the dog followed him in. Baby started fussing, 2 year old wasn’t sleeping, and so I finally gave up and went downstairs to nurse the baby. I just wanted an uninterrupted nap. Is that too much to ask????