Not Excited

Anyone else never get to that point where you're so uncomfortable with pregnancy that you're okay with the idea of childbirth? Im full term tmrw and I'm severely upset that childbirth still sounds worse than staying pregnant. I cant breathe. I feel ugly. I have had a horrible time bonding with baby. All around it's been pretty crappy experience. It's not even my first and I'm sad to say this is the first pregnancy I've had where I never eventually bonded and was pumped to go into labor and meet my baby. It just feels like a complete stranger whom will constantly scream and wake me will arrive via extreme pain and mutilation of my body in a room full of strangers. I want out. 😢😭