this pregnancy has been so hard for me 😓

i don't really know where to start

i am in constant non stop pain from sciatica and back pain and baby being breech constantly kicking my pelvis. I cant walk or go to the bathroom without assistance, i can't eat properly or i get bad stomach aches and puke.

and now ive been told i might have cholestasis.

My boyfriend seems to be taking advantage of me being stuck in bed, hes been drinking alot lately and leaving all night with his "friends"

he doesn't contact me and ignores my messages. He'll be gone for 2~3 days and completely ignores our daughter. this is the time i need him the most and he chooses to be out in the street instead of home with us

I don't know whst to do, there isn't anything I can do.

i sm honestly starting to regret this pregnancy, to the point of wishing I wasn't pregnant at all. sometimes i want to fall asleep and just not wake up anymore

please dont judge, any positive advice is appreciated,

i just can't anymore, i can't

edit*28 weeks