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TW - Sensitive

TW - Sensitive

TW - Sensitive

I recently tried to hang myself but, my partner intervened and so I am still here today. I am 17 weeks postpartum. I spoke to my health visitor a week later and told her I was struggling. I have since been referred for support however, they seem to be taking the stance that I am depressed and need anti-depressants. I do not feel depressed.

I am struggling with extreme anxiety and feel overwhelmed with it at times. My main trigger is my partners family, I feel terrible saying this. They haven’t respected boundaries and I feel they are going to make my daughter seriously ill as they have no concern about bringing illnesses around her, or me when I was pregnant (I lost 3 babies before by miscarriage due to an autoimmune disorder). I feel physically sick and get hot and can’t stop panicking at the thought of having to see them but, it feels like they are smothering us with trying to visit all the time and keep poking my daughter in the face. It got to the point that I couldn’t cope, I don’t feel like I can keep her safe, she deserves better than me.

I don’t know what the point of this was, it’s just tough.