Having a really hard time

I’ve never felt more alone than I do right now. 14 weeks and 5 days pregnant.

My husband owns his own business so he works from usually 8am to 5pm. Then he spends a few hours outside with his son, my step son. I’m on bed rest and cannot do the activities I used to do. I can’t even lift anything over 10 pounds.

When he does finally come inside it’s around 8pm. After all is said and done for the day I usually get time with him from 9-10 pm until we fall asleep and he leaves for work again.

Yesterday, Saturday I had plans to get out of this house bc I’m going stir crazy. I was going to go to the thrift store and see if I could find my step son some new pants bc he is growing like a weed! I told my husband these plans on Friday night while laying in bed. He said “I’ll go with you. I’ll drop (son) off at his moms at 12 like normal and then we can go together”. I asked if he had work and he said no. Just that they were going to get haircuts in the morning and then he would maybe do some laundry. Then yesterday morning when he was getting ready to leave at 9 am I asked “so 12?” He said “yeah 12”. So I said “ok I’ll get ready. See you at noon”. I went through the effort of straightening my hair, putting my contacts in, a little bit of makeup. I started to feel like a woman again. It felt so nice.

Well, he then comes home at almost 1pm and still had his son with him. I asked “is his mom not home?” He said “no she is but we are going to have lunch, play some football outside, then I have a quote to go do”. I just got so sad in that moment bc it felt like I was being put on the back burner. So I just said “ok I’ll take a nap”. He could tell I was upset and came into the bedroom saying “don’t be like that. I forgot I had this quote”.

So I repeated “I’m just taking a nap”. He got such an attitude and said “yea whatever” and walked away and kept mumbling.

I spent hours crying in my bed and we haven’t spoken a word. We texted a bit and he told me that I’m all emotion and angry and there’s no talking to me. This morning I woke up and the feeling of sadness and loneliness hit me so hard. I’ve been on our patio crying for hours. He’s still sleeping. In 3 hours he has to go pick up his son and then I’ll be alone again all day. He goes back to work tomorrow so I’m just waiting for another lonely week. I can’t tell him how I feel bc he doesn’t never sympathize. I just hear how he has so much on his plate all the time. Me trying to talk to him feels like a burden. I have no idea what to do. Anyone been through something like this?