Advice needed.

I have been working in a retail store. There’s this guy I find attractive but have never talked to him because I have a boyfriend. Although my boyfriend and I are going through a rough patch (we have been fighting a lot over any dumb shit).

Anyways. I’m in the back room trying to go back to the floor. I see the guy, I was going and he was coming, I had a cart full of things so I stopped to give him the chance to walk since the way was somewhat narrow, someone had left their cart there. When I tell you that this man looked at me and with his fingers just motion (the come here) for me to continue with no words. Something in me liked it. I know it’s wrong since I have my boyfriend and although we have been arguing, I love him. But I found that extremely hot. Probably would have liked if it was my boyfriend that did that to me and then just fucked me... I’m new to having sex. But I noticed that I like when my mans takes control or starts things. It’s usually me that has to start.

I’m sorry I know that I’m all over the place.

Was it weird that I liked that although it wasn’t my boyfriend?