Rant/Advice: I think i should leave

I’ve been with this guy for over a year. During this time we got engaged, moved in an apartment together, started having really awful fights, I called off said engagement, took some space from eachother, and got back together. Im now 10 weeks pregnant. I had to have a surgery last week that I would have General Anesthesia for, asked my OB if it would be okay for baby and she said it would be. I did forget to tell him I already asked her about it but he went on a rant and basically said I couldnt get the surgery if he didnt hear it from the OB’s mouth that it was okay beforehand. Well that was the night before the surgery. He also said “well if the baby dies im blaming you.” Which he has been known to say some really awful things to me before and now after getting back together. It was one of the things that made me leave him. And one of the conditions of getting back together was for him to get back on his meds and go to therapy to figure all that out. He is. Still, he does it. I cried that night and told him that i cant be with him or stay with him if he’s gonna continue to treat me like that. He’s jumping up, grabbing me and acting apologetic like no no we have to stay together for the baby etc, i wont be okay if you leave. I made him give me space. (He stopped with the verbal abuse for now. He has been still critiquing every little thing i do and buying random gifts to “show how much he loves me) I went ahead and got the surgery, everything has been fine. I stayed because my parents dont know im pregnant and I wanted to get the ultrasound to show them when I told them. I wont get my ultrasound till october and everyday I just feel miserable. Due to trauma from when I was younger I have triggers such as people standing over me and yelling in my space, which he does…. All the time…. I just can’t do this anymore. I tried to figure out if the therapy and medication would help but it doesnt. Im just not happy. I don’t feel like just because we’re having a baby together we need to be together especially when the relationship is so explosive and damaging. Like he takes advice from his mom and her pregnancy experience and expects us to be the same. He just recently had me call my doctor to ask about my “mood swings” and why I was so nauseous around week 7…..

Basically what im asking is should I suck it up and try to move back home? Or am i not giving this medication and therapy stuff long enough to work. My family will probably be disappointed and surprised but they take amazing care of me and always have regardless of if they were upset with me or not. More importantly, i feel safe with them. Im not happy here, I don’t feel safe or secure with him. I want out. There’s no one I can talk to about this so I came here. Please give advice if you have any. There’s more that’s happened between us but I honestly just wanna know if im making the right choice and don’t really care about people believing or seeing that he’s as damaging as he is.