Hemorrhoids? Something else? Please help

I’ve had this thing for a few years now. I first got it, I believe in 2018, because I was constantly constipated. It hurt so bad back then when I sat or tried to you know… use the bathroom. Anyway, I tried preparation H cream back then. It didn’t work. I tried tea tree oil and then tried apple cider vinegar, nothing worked. I stopped trying, hoping it would go away.

The lump has been there and is still there, but I haven’t had pain since 2018. I don’t even feel it unless I touch it, which I do to check if it’s grown or not because it’s becoming an insecurity now. It seems to have grown, but still not pain. I’m not sure if it’s hemorrhoids or something else? Only things I know of are hemorrhoids and anal fissures. I tried the witch hazel pads, nothing helps shrink the size. I don’t want to get surgery and even heard that the surgery doesn’t help.

To describe it, it’s a soft squishy lump growing right next to my butthole. It starts as a little line coming kind of out of my hole but the whole growth is outside the hole not inside. I’m getting desperate to remove it, and now that it’s grown I’m even more desperate.

Anyone have any tips?