A bad friend for not going to a baby shower?

So this girl and I used to be best friends, but then drifted apart for no reason. We live in the same town but don’t ever see each other anymore. I’ll be honest both of us don’t put in the effort to hangout really but time to time we’ll say “let’s hang out some day soon.” Now both her and I got pregnant around the same time literally just a week difference. She been talking to me a lot more on snap chat and asking for advice during her pregnancy and marking sure everything she’s going through is normal and sending me belly pics. I had a baby shower, I didn’t want but my mom insisted. I knew people were going to make last minute excuses. Just like she did and a few other people in my fiancé’s side did. Like last Last minute dumb excuses. But overall I still had a great time. She knew how much it would of meant to me for her to be there. As I was trying for two years after a mc. I can’t help but feel petty and she expects to to be at hers. I’m the person that has always been there for someone or to always give advice. And I never really truly stand up for myself until recently. My anxiety has been high and just a bit of depression but not bad, and my pregnancy as definitely not been the easiest. No one has been here for me the entire pregnancy. Check up ask how I’m doing besides my family and some of my fiancé. I guess that’s just how it is sometimes. Im tired of always being the nice one and im tired of being ran over like a door Matt. I honestly don’t want to go because im tired of feeling this way and honestly just don’t even want to go and I could care less, im sorry I just needed to rant . Has anyone ever felt this way?? And im sick and tired of people telling me when THEY can come over instead of seeing if it’s okay with me first if it’s the best time to come over.