WHAT DO I DO???

Kind of a long story but I really need advice! <3

so me and this guy mark have been friends since about 2019. we grew up in the same hometown and always knew of each other but about two years ago we started seeing each other at the bars all the time and got closer. it started as a flirtatious and playful thing, but we never took it any further than that. he used to date a girl that has a lot of mutual friends with me and I never wanted to cause any drama or make her hate me so I never tried to take our relationship any further.

A few months after me and mark started getting close.. I started to talk to his friend, Josh. Josh never took me seriously but I really liked him. Mark would tell me all of the things Josh would do behind my back and would comfort me whenever I was upset about the things he would tell me. Around when the pandemic hit, and we were in lockdown, me and Mark would FaceTime almost everyday. We stayed up late every night talking about all kinds of things and he even talked to my family over the phone (very rare for me, I don’t let guys meet my family) we picked up the flirting again, but I never took it seriously considering I was still hung up on josh.

Long story short, Me and Josh cut off contact completely in may and he got a girlfriend a few weeks later after stringing me along for almost two years. During this time, I started going out more trying to mend my heart and started seeing Mark a lot again. Although we stayed snap chatting all this time, we hadn’t seen each other since the pandemic started. We started taking lots of pictures together and growing really close again. Every time he would see me out, he would get really excited and stay by me the entire time.

me and my family even took a trip to Florida about a month ago and he was in Florida as well and we met up. he hung out with me and my sister. (again, very rare for me)

Flash forward to about a week ago, me and my friends decided to go out. I got way tooo drunk and started telling my friends “I want to kiss mark” I guess they got tired of me rambling because they bet mark and me $20 to kiss. we instantly looked at each other and kissed. I felt like a giddy teenager. the rest of the night we were hugging and he wouldn’t leave my side.

After this I couldn’t help but feel like I have been pushing aside my feelings all along. What if it has been mark this entire time and I’ve been denying it??? I hung out with a bunch of friends the other night and me and mark were by each other the entire night. Hugging and attached at the hip. We all went to Waffle House, and before Mark could meet up with us his close closed friend said to me “why don’t don’t you try with him? I know you’re attracted” I just responded “it’s complicated” we all ended up going back to my place and playing charades. mark was the only one who could guess mine and everyone kept saying “they’re perfect for each other”

I don’t know what to do. I feel my feelings growing for him a lot, and I keep trying to ignore them. My roommates ex-best friend is his ex. She even texted him asking about me. I just know that it would cause issues and I hate drama. He also has been starting to become distant with me when we’re apart from each other ( but every time we see each other it’s like I’m the only one there) I can’t help but wonder if he’s feeling the same things I am. He’s at the bar tonight without me and I can’t help but feel jealous if there are other girls with him feeling the same way. Part of me just wants to distance myself from him completely because I think my feelings for him aren’t worth it/ won’t work and the other part of me wants to try harder. What should I do???!