I can’t help but feel jealous when I see people having the opposite sex for their second baby.

Two weeks ago we found out I’m having our second boy.

It’s not so much that I’m sad to have another baby boy. I love my son so much. But it kind of feels like I’m mourning or have lost the family I had pictured and fantasised about which was two kids, one of each. My mum had it and my mother in law had it.

I know I am so lucky to have any babies. I’m incredibly blessed. I will and already do love this little boy so much.

I just can’t help but feel a bit of loss and yearning too.

Just wanted to get it off my chest.

I am hoping the feeling fades soon.

Thanks for reading ❤️