I want more 🙁

So this guy I’m talking to initially we were talking to meet up and have sex but as I started talking to him more I actually didn’t know if I wanted to do that. I shared how frustrated it makes me to have sex for one night and never speak to someone again. And I haven’t told him but those experiences resulted in me being very emotional. And I guess I’m just so afraid of that happening I don’t have the heart to say how I really feel over text. He said he wouldn’t do those things to me but you can never be sure of what a man says to you. Of course I want to do something the first night or meet up but I know if I want to keep this going I have to save it. He’s coming to see me in like two weeks and I’ve been hesitant to text him because I talk better in person. But I want him to know me and I want to know him. My sexual past of two one night stands haunt me because I crave connection and not things that last for one night. We have a good connection. I just don’t want to waste his time for him anticipating to come over probably expecting sex and then I tell him we should wait but it seems ok in my head at the moment. We can talk it through and actually see what we want and see if it aligns.