Perineal massage

Has anyone had any experience in perineal massage? I’ve just done it for the first time and I couldn’t finish it cos the feel of it just made me cringe!🤢I don’t feel like I did it properly either. I think I still have some scar tissue down there as well from my first birth and I got given some hormone cream and a dilator thing to help break that down. Do you think I could use the dilator to do the perineal massage instead of my thumbs?