Going from 2 to 3?

How hard is it going from 2 to 3 kids????

I have a 4yo and a 7 month old and sometimes I feel like I’m drowning. My husband has been home with us for the past 2 years due to the pandemic which has been wonderful, but now he’s starting to travel more for work as things open back up and it’s been really tough. We really do want another child because family is so important to us, but I’m already 38 so we can’t wait very long and I can’t imagine having another one right now because I’m already overwhelmed. We’re planning to move closer to my family whenever we find a house in the next year so I think that will help me, but am I crazy for even thinking about another baby? In my mind this craziness of having an infant is temporary and we will eventually be happier having a bigger family, but I don’t know how to survive in the short term! Any advice??

Also, we can afford a nanny and a housekeeper, but I don’t know how I feel about that because my mom and my sister never had them so I feel like a failure if I have to ask for that sort of help, plus I feel like a housekeeper can’t keep my house as clean as I can and a nanny can’t provide for my kids the way that I can 😬