Sad - venting post

I finally got my husband on board with going for baby number two. We are only on our first month trying… and as of 15 mins ago I’m out. My hopes were so high. I was so excited. I didn’t think it would be as upsetting as it is. But it’s bringing back all the thoughts of trying for our first and how hard it was.

I am sad that there’s no thanksgiving baby for us. That we won’t be able to announce to family at Christmas. I’m sad that my son is going at least another month without a playmate.

I’m just sad. I don’t know if I can deal with this heartbreak again. And getting AF today makes me not want to try again.

Maybe it’s just hormones. Maybe I’m just emotional because of that. I just want those double pink lines so badly….

I’m sure tomorrow will be better. But tonight I am sad and disappointed.