I have ocd, and I see a therapist often. We are still working on this but I was wondering if you knew someone or maybe you gone through something similar.... so, when I found out I was pregnant, I also had an eating disorder at the time. I stopped my eating disorder habits, but I developed a list of “safe” or “clean” foods which are foods I won’t feel guilty feeding myself or my child. I feel like since he’s my responsibility, if I was to feed him something that accidentally made him sick, that would completely be my fault. I never judge what other people feed their kids btw. But I keep hearing about red dyes and cancer causing agents in food and I know organic foods can also still cause illnesses. But the eating disorder logic part of me is ignoring facts. I think what also possibly triggered it, was the way my child development program kept explaining how important and beneficial breastfeeding was. I felt like a bad mom, because I could only partially breastfeed and had to supplement as well, for a year and a half. I thought since my body wouldn’t provide, I feel like I needed to make up for it, I guess.

Unfortunately, with the food prices going up, I feel like I’m going to have to start buying non organic foods. (I know, I sound so dumb right now. I’m sorry.) My anxiety has been skyrocketing.

But, thinking about it, I ate regular foods that definitely contained GMO’s throughout my childhood, and I never had any physical health issues other than obesity. And high cholesterol. And some behavioral issues that were probably normal considering thing I went through.

I feel like maybe going from organic to natural foods would put my mind at ease through transitioning our menu. I feel so dumb, but just thinking about eating something that my mind won’t classify as “safe/clean” makes me panic. I thought this might be called orthorexia, but I don’t exercise.

Am I a bad mom? 😰