I'm freaking out

October 2020 I had a miscarriage. Again in January after my grandmother died. Then again in April 2021 at 8 weeks pregnant. The other two were very early on.

Had spotting after my first appointment(11/19) at 7 weeks 2 days because they did a pap on me I was due for one. I have been so paranoid through out this pregnancy. I had a terrible dream of misscarrying this morning and when I woke up I was spotting and still spotting. I'm 10 weeks today and I'm freaking out. My first ultrasound isn't until Monday and my next appointment is next Wednesday. It's extremely light and pink with no tissue or anything.

Should I be worried or is it normal?

I just need some kind of reassurance cause I don't know if I can handle another miscarriage especially being this close to Christmas and the anniversary of my grandmother's death.