Gender disappointment

Turns out gender disappointment is VERY real. I never thought I’d ever have it because of my history with unhealthy and unsuccessful pregnancies. This is our 5th pregnancy, hopefully 3rd baby. We found out it’s another girl. Obviously I’m very thankful baby is healthy….but I’m very heartbroken I won’t have a son. I’m heartbroken I can’t give my husband a healthy son. We lost our son at 23 weeks May 2020. How do I make this disappointment go away. I don’t want to feel this way over a miracle.

Yes I understand we could always adopt a little boy….but adoption is VERY expensive where I’m from and it’s a hard process.