My mother died tonight

My mother died tonight I did not say I loved her when she dropped me off at work this morning she was all I have of family left, I just want to speak to my mother right now and see her, her death was sudden talking one minute and dead the next second.

I am now stuck with my step father. I am 22. He has no family either he keeps saying we’re all we have left while crying. I feel extremely bad but I want to leave.. he did and said things that a father shouldn’t have done.. I never wanted to leave my mother so I stayed.

I don’t know how life will be now, I felt safe when my mother was at home.

I think I’m scared but I don’t know yet. He hasn’t done that stuff in give or take 2 years

What is the right thing? Do I stay with my dad for awhile to see if it works out? or do I move to a different state and live with my boyfriend? (My bf doesn’t live in my state.)

I’m sorry mom I wrote this, I’m sorry I didn’t tell you more, thank you for taking me to work this morning mom, I love you.