I am 27...today we put my little brother who was 23 in the ground next to our grandpa. I hope he watches over him. 15 months ago he started having some pain. The doctors couldn't tell him what it was and his shitty doctor from his state health coverage in Georgia just kept prescribing pills since it was easier and who cares about the poor dude in pain right. He got addicted and his doctor didn't care and just kept writing more. Well 6 days ago he couldn't take the pain anymore and tried to take a few extra to help and overdosed. Before this he was in grad school to be a social worker for foster kids and volunteered with at risk youth in inner city Atlanta teaching life skills and sports to boys age 6-15. He was an amazing human with so much heart and compassion. When theyndid his autopsy they found a tumor that was the probable cause of the pain and would have been able to be removed if the doctor had cared to dig deeper. After his funeral I just drove around and a song come on my spotifSpotify, drug dealer by Macklemore, and I had to pull over because I fucking lost it. It was too close to home and all true. His doctor will face no repercussions and technically didn't do anything incorrect so he will walk away scot free while my brother rests in the ground. Being on state insurance he couldn't find any other doctors who would take him and we don't have the money to do it out of pocket. I have never been so sad, angry, and lost as I was sitting on the side of the road today bawling while that song was on. I wanted to rip my car apart, scream, drive to the doctor and tell him what my brother could have done in life but I just cried. My amazing, intelligent, and driven brother was cast aside and now is just talked about as another black kid who overdosed in the projects. He was so much more and I know those who knew him know that, I just wish the world could have known him before a doctor "helped" him. At least his pain is over now and hope him and grand daddy are together again. Never had a song effect me so much and wish this song wasn't the one I had to connect to.