PPD help

Kat

I’m almost a month postpartum and I’m really struggling with my mental health. I have support at home but my boyfriend is making things way worse for me and I just wish he’d realize how hard this is for me and what I’m going through. He doesn’t help with our daughter he hasn’t even changed her diaper he’s fed her a hand full of times. The most he’s done is the first few days we where back at home I had really bad baby blues I was having anxiety attacks through the whole night and sleeping through them somehow and he got up with her through out the night. Sometimes when I have to go do something and I ask him to hold her for a second he says yeah but the tone in his voice and look on his face says that he really doesn’t want to but he has too. He got a job a few days before Christmas he’s been so moody talking down to me telling me I’m shitty that I’m a shitty person and he’s even called me a dumb bitch and said I wasn’t “wifey material” We don’t have a car at the moment so my brother takes him in the morning and his mom picks him up about 4:30 ( he gets off at 4) I texted his mom and asked if she had picked him up yet she said no she didn’t know she had to she had been she knows he has no other way so called my brother to see if he could go get him luckily my brother was actually home (I was not I was at the doctor) I didn’t know when they left to go get him or anything witch of course my brother took his sweet time knowing he was sitting there with no phone so when he gets home he doesn’t say a word to me ignores the hell outta me and goes to sleep so I went to sleep too he wakes up and I ask what his problem is and he says it was my fault he had to stay there past his time to go home? And starts yelling at me telling me I’m a shitty girlfriend. He always tells me I have an attitude and I’m a bitch. But he calls me these names and downs me and makes me feel like complete shit about my self to the point to where I’m crying all day long and I’m having a hard time waking up feeding our daughter because I’m so depressed I’m so lonely and lost I don’t know what to do he says he wouldn’t say those things if I wasn’t such s bitch and treat him like shit but I don’t I make his lunch for work I write him notes I rub his back with lotion even when I’m the one who needs it most though my whole pregnancy I rubbed his back every night. He constantly tells me I need to “be a woman”!and “grow up” but I’m doing all I can do.