Childbirth options

I don’t know what to do. I’m 23w pregnant with my second. I have a blood disorder that causes me to clot during pregnancy, surgery, etc. I have a couple different doctors that I have to see for this pregnancy. I am considered high risk. I got told earlier that one of my doctors is looking toward me having a scheduled C-section. I was told that they do not want me to labor naturally at all. I am really upset about this. I do not want a C-section whatsoever. I quite honestly I’m thinking of just saying no to having a C-section. They also said that another option was just to be induced. I was induced with my first and I seized twice. My body does not take the medication well. I laid in the bed suffocating because of it. I also do not want to be induced. I quite honestly want to have a natural labor. They are wanting to do a C-section because it is the most controlled. There are less variables that they Think would put me in the baby at risk. But all three of them have risks. If I have a C-section I could clot from the surgery. I also would have a worse time with the after bleeding because I will be back on the blood thinners post surgery. Since the surgery is a major surgery the risk was at the blood clots would be in a more high-risk area like my lungs and other parts of my chest. If I get induced I could seize again, have to have a C-section anyways, and put too much stress on me and the baby that I clot anyways. If I labor naturally the blood thinners might not be out of my system so when I go to give birth I could hemorrhage from the blood loss. I could definitely lose too much blood and I could also clot as well. All of these factors I have no idea what I wanna do. I really wanna tell them that I just want to go naturally because there’s risks with each one. My partner is telling me that I need to decide of what I want to do and either tell my doctors no or not. I know I have quite a little while to still think about this but I’m trying to figure it out as soon as we can. I’m just really upset 😞