Anyone numb to being pregnant?

Brittany • Married💍 1 amazing little girl 7-9-19🤱🏽

Just like the title says… anyone numb to it? No emotion behind it at all? I have such a horrible past with pregnancies I have zero emotion as the words come across the test screen “pregnant” 5 natural pregnancies, all ectopics. 2 100% clear hsgs. A later loss at 12 weeks and 1 successful <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">ivf</a> pregnancy. Multiple frozen embryo transfer fails… just numb. The other 5 didn’t work. Why would this one? Anyone has words of encouragement would highly appreciate it