Hi, I'm new here. I'm a second time mom to be, only 11 weeks along & my first born is 3. I have been on and off together with her father for 5 years, yes he is also the father of baby to be. Our relationship had a tough start as I am a recovering alcoholic but was not in recovery at the beginning & he is a recovering drug addict who was also not in recovery at the time. Our daughter changed that for me & I I My shit together but he did not at the time. We parted ways and he missed out on the first two years of our daughters life as he was not in a good place. 8 months ago he contacted me asking for another chance, he was clean, had a job, & was maintaining sobriety. It's always been him for me and he seemed to have it together so we started seeing each other again. Throughout the 8 months it's been a Rollercoaster to say the least.

There are a few things in a relationship that have never changed for me; no lying, no cheating, no porn. Now I understand porn is controversial and everyone is allotted to their own views and opinions. Great absolutely I would not shun someone who enjoys watching it with their partner or is completely ok with it. I have always been upfront with my so that I am not and will never be ok with it or accept it in a relationship. He said alright no problem.

This has become a very large problem with us. When my significant other watches porn I find it disrespectful to me & our relationship. This hurts me. I've explained this to him many many times and he tells me he doesn't understand how it hurts me and I've tried to explain it to him and he claims he will not do it again....

I find myself crying pretty regularly every few days now and I'm at a point I don't think I can handle it anymore. I'm just at a loss on what to do.... I don't want to leave him but I also don't want to stay in a relationship I am miserable in..... any advice is appreciated & sorry for thr vent I'm just so frustrated.

P.s. yes I understand some on here may not understand why it hurts me either but please remember I am not judging you or your feelings so please do not mine.