Feel so invalidated by the hospital

Went to L&D with some concerns (consistent yet not painful contractions for hours, and red spotting) after calling my doc and him telling me to go. My last appointment baby was very low and I was very far effaced.

They checked my cervix and it was so painful (I’ve had checks before that were not like this- I know what they’re supposed to feel like), that I started sobbing while the doc had his hand in there. I couldn’t control the tears, that’s how traumatic the procedure felt. It took me a bit to stop crying, it hurt that bad. They monitored me for a while after and there was a lot of blood and it felt like I was sitting on a knife.

Doctor told me it wasn’t go time yet and prepped to send me home (which, fine). But then they come back in with a prescription for anxiety medicine “to take the edge off and help you sleep.”

Basically she did the check so rough that it brought me to tears, then wrote off the intense pain I felt as just anxiety?? I couldn’t believe it. I don’t even have a history of anxiety that could maybe support her claim. I looked up the medication and it can actually cause fetal seizures when used prior to labor as well so I’m just in shock. And definitely not filling this prescription as I’m 39 weeks now.

I just feel so much trauma and apprehension about even going back there for delivery. My husband doesn’t understand why this is hitting me so deeply but it is.

Edit: thanks for the kind words guys! Idk whether to be thankful Im not the only one with a bad experience or more upset some of you have had a rough time too. She isn’t my normal doctor, hoping she’s not on call when it IS go time. Everyone else in the hospital was great, just definitely not her ☠️

Edit 2: @neefa, of course I told them it was from the check. It was also pretty obvious IMO when I was calm before the check and started crying during it! That would be like going to the doctor for a sore throat and they prescribe you headache medicine. They also didn’t ask me any questions related to anxiety, stress, etc. there was no reason for them to prescribe it to me. There is nothing wrong with getting help for anxiety if you have it - I have a huge issue with my reaction to pain being brushed aside and blamed on something I’m NOT experiencing though.