Can’t find strength to leave husband

My husband and I have been together for going on 10 years. Since we were 14. To make a long story short he’s always been very mentally and emotionally abusive and got rid of all my friends growing up so I completely depended on him and only had him. Now I’m almost 24 and I feel so lonely I have no one. I’ve pushed everyone away to hide how horrible my relationship is.

I can’t do this anymore. I’m so young but I feel like my life is doomed to be horrible. I’m not myself anymore. I’m not “scared” to leave him as In scared that he’ll hurt me or anything. He’ll let me go, but I know he’ll beg me to come back. That’s the hard part is I always give in.

And we have a 2 year old together and I’m only working part time. I think the only reason we’re together anymore is because it’s comfortable. I don’t know how to be on my own. Or when I get a full time job where our daughter will go or if I’ll ever be able to afford a place on my own. I’ve never been on my own and the idea of leaving everything I’m used to is sooo scary. I can stay with my dad for awhile but then what? How do I get over the what ifs and just move on? I need to do this for myself and my child. We deserve better than this.

Any advice is appreciated.