Feeling guilty

I’m almost 2 weeks pp and I want to quit BFing. My anxiety and depression have been quite high— I’m already on meds for regular depression and anxiety— and I’m quite nervous my baby blues will turn into ppd. I’m so anxious about feedings and time commitment when I have two older kids that need me plus the fact I am my baby’s sole food and my husband can’t be as involved in that — the cluster feeding is exhausting and I feel so touched out by mid to late afternoon and I’m just not mentally or physically tuned into my other kids. I quit after a week with my son due to latch issues and some of these feelings but felt more justified because I knew I would be needing to go back to work. I’m now a SAHM so I feel so guilty, like I make free food and my baby latches while formula is expensive and it’s flu and Covid season so breast milk provides those antibodies. I wish I didn’t feel this way 😩 I guess I just don’t know if I push through or stop now. Everything just feels overwhelming.