I just need some reassurance and advice!

Sorry for the longer post!

So I’m young! 20 to be exact (not married but will be in November!!, and same baby daddy for both kids! We’ve been together 4 1/2 years!!), I had my first little boy at 18 in December 2019 and my moms side of the family were excited but also made comments about it and weren’t so nice! Well fast forward to September of 2021 and we are pregnant again! How exciting! We announce to family between 8-12 weeks and again seems excited but has comments! Then a week later my cousin who is 24 perfect life, married and what not announces she’s pregnant also! I was so excited to be pregnant with her, we are due the same day even! But she is definitely more liked on that side of the family especially seeing her circumstances!

We found out we were having a girl at 12 weeks and announced it! Everyone was so excited a girl after 5 boys! Well my cousin just announced she’s pregnant with a girl also and I can’t help to feel jealous and feel like I have to try so hard to get approval from that side of the family and “keep up” with her! I can already see how it’s going to go when the babies come she’s going to get all the attention, which I expected more then me seeing how it’s her first and my second but it’s more then that it’s that she’s married, great job, house, followed all the religious rules about waiting tell marriage! That’s what that side of the family looks at. I was just praying it was a boy because I just wanted the spot light in something and I know it’s now all gone that she’s having a girl also!

I feel so bad for feeling this way and I don’t want to and I would never say anything to them because I want her to have spot light and im not the type of person to ruin it for someone because my jealousy but it’s just hard and pregnancy emotions don’t help!

Am I wrong feeing this way? How can I help this feeling?