I know this is ridiculous but I’m 12 weeks today. This pregnancy has been rough. No sickness but the constant threat of miscarriage with bleeding and SCH. I have my 12 week ultrasound and appointment tomorrow, I know baby has a heartbeat because I listen on the Doppler daily. I just can’t bring myself to relax. I’m finding myself unable to get excited or see a future with a baby. I just have this horrible feeling that at any moment I’m going to miscarry. I kept giving myself milestones where I’d feel better. First it was 6 weeks, which was when the bleeding started. Then 8 weeks because the risks are lower at that point, then 12 weeks because that’s when it’s “safe” to announce…. Now it’s second trimester which is only days away, but even then, I won’t feel safe. I just can’t see myself enjoying this pregnancy at all because of the constant fear.