I’m pregnant with my first child he’s due any day now and during my pregnancy I found out my man cheated on me.

It broke my heart and I cant be happy with him but I’ve decided to try and make things work for our sons sake. I know this wouldn’t be every woman’s choice but after doing a lot of research on how single parent households can negatively affect children, I feel too guilty to put my son through that. It’s not his fault for what his dad did so he shouldn’t have to suffer. And if I woulda known his dad cheated on me earlier, I wouldn’t have continued this pregnancy because being a single mother is a deal breaker for me.

I feel like I’m betraying myself and my standards by staying with him because I know if it wasn’t for this baby I woulda been gone so fast. But I can’t bring myself to leave because the guilt of bringing my son up without his dad is too much.

I know that children can also suffer in two parent households where there is a lot of arguments etc so I am already preparing myself to just bite my tongue so we don’t argue in front of him. I’m not even sure why I’m writing this I guess I just feel sad that this is my life. I just feel like I’m never going to be happy now because I am putting my sons happiness over mine.

Update: Thankyou to everyone who commented💞 A lot of your comments make sense and made me realise I can’t live in a lie forever. It’s just not sustainable in the long run. I know deep down I can’t fake my happiness for my son, he will eventually notice something ain’t right. I am going to leave this asshole and pray daily that my son doesn’t suffer because of this.