Heartbroken

So I went in to get my very first ultrasound for baby #3 today 9wks 2days just to find out our baby did not make it past 8wks 2 days. I’m devastated and hurt just out right blaming myself because I don’t know what went wrong. I had no signs of a miscarriage at all nothing we tried for 4 years for this baby just to be heartbroken. My husband is trying to be here for me but he doesn’t know what to say or do. I’ve never had this happen before and I’m just at a loss here. We planned on announcing to the rest of our family on my birthday this Friday, I don’t even want to celebrate my birthday anymore. Honestly I want to curl up and cry til I can’t cry anymore.