TW: birth trauma, Back to back after hemorrhage

Summer

Has anyone had a hemorrhage and then unexpectedly became pregnant before the recommended 18 month wait period? Backstory, I had a perfect birth but then bled out over half my blood volume while delivering the placenta. Before then the thought of dying giving birth had barely crossed my mind. Very scared/nervous about delivering again. I have a three year old and a 9 month old that I want to be here for. Currently 5.5 weeks pregnant. I would love to hear any experiences. Thanks!