I feel like no one understands how I feel and what I’m going through. I am trying to work on my grad school but I have lost motivation to finish my final paper. Not where I want to be career wise. I am a part timer at a local store.

My family doesn’t listen to my side just my siblings side of the story and goes with it. They keep saying I blame them and complain too much. I try my best. I sometimes want to hurt myself but I’m a coward. My siblings call me names. I don’t want to hurt them nor go through financial issues and so I don’t hurt myself. I don’t want to bring shame on to the family. I am just lost, I’m 30. No one else I can explain things to. I think my parents and siblings think I’m going mad.

I don’t know what to do.