Ignoring Rape

I have to get this off my chest I guess therapy here. I was almost rape being forced and groped against a wall. My husband was not around but when I called and told him he immediately came home looking asking what happened. Within 10 minutes he made me have sex. I just don’t understand why ??? He knows I have sexual abuse history I just don’t understand why he wanted sex. I don’t think I’ll speak if future incidents happen.